Saya cuma mau kerja sementara...

That was my answer when I was interviewed for a GP post 20 years ago. 

I continued and said: "Saya nak ambil FRACGP"

Being someone who was just back to Malaysia 4 years prior to the interview , i was misled by my own assumption!

I thought that a gp status in Malaysia was as respected, loved as in Australia. 

Being a distinction holder in Primary Care during undergraduate training, there was a special spot of love and interest deep in my heart to undertake gp for my future  pursuit. Never that I knew, that gps were regarded as " waste basket" option, meant mainly if not only for those who flung in their local master training of any ,or for those who had given up and sick with the system or where gov service had  become second option to sometg like family..  Not like at least at my time in Australia : top students would  take up gps, the same thing alike in the UK..

But, maybe  my first love to treat "patients" rather than treat "diseases" had somehow channeled me to choose the line ..

Well , I must admit there were other reasons that  made me to quit goverment service at that time, but my passion  in helping, listening and loving my patients as what I cud see happening in gp clinics had lured me to enter the "world" of gp.. 

 Caption: this was where, the interview took place..

Next:

1)  patients are and always be MY TEACHERs!

2) I OPENED the door and called En. NAJIB sila masuk...  and that surprised my boss who then offered immediate increment .. 

A man's effort and his woman's comfort..

Each time he flies, early am calls are routines.. 5 odd am... The time enough for them to pray subuh at the helipad just before the chopper take off..

Routines and that doesnt bother u?

Nope! Such a risky job! May Allah grant them and my mr hubby the thawwab.. Having to put tawakkal alaLlah flying across the sea is no joke. Not for few minutes that might be fun but it is hours.. Hahaha ... Not fun at all.. It needs a b___( oops not trying to be obsene) ..

Safe jouney hubby to and fro.. Children here waiting hope not just to mere swallow...

Working hard day and night for them to know..

Thats kinda  life their beloved papa got to 

Go..

See u next week insha Allah .. 

Designing life is like cooking nasi beriani..

Just to discover the key of keeping motivated is to keep small incremental targets ahead.. 

And also discover that I am such a no joke kind of person by having those targets around. They made you a serious person! Hahaha wanna be boring? Try that then.. 

Was in the bathroom reflecting that how my darling hubby managed to break the tension of mine..( of having to wait for him with my sore hurting knees) just by making such a funny face..  Humours help! 

I guess designing life is just like cooking nasi beriani, one need all necessary ingredients in right portion and just the right amount to be that super yummy tasteful.. 

Yeah.. End of the day.. It is not the happiness or elated mood that matters!  It is the "sakinah"... Yeah ...sakinah the feeling of inner calmness with the ability to control self , others and the rest is the secret ... 

Let us see the "sakinah" in Sandy.. Serious!  In dire need of that sakinah to put and design my life and future  nicely.. Owh! Where are the ghee, ketchups, rice ( not the china made plastic ones!) .. Do u use kechup for beriani any way? Hahaha wrong ingredients .. No wonder I am currently like this !  Sweet dream , gud nite and wassalam.. Doa for them fi kulli makaaan. 

My Dessert of the day..

Yezza...

Woke up in the morning to charge the new power bank given ( or a better word requested from my Mr Hubby.. Yeah, when u now considered urself as jobless..) and only to realise that u cant read the instruction attached properly! The letters were too supersmall!

Also to note that you got one missed call and that belonged to a friend of your son who u have forgotten to fetch from a boarding school for a weekend outing!!

Allah.. Age is catching up!

The funny part with this "gentle reminder" from God .. Hehehe your pre-order dessert after meal is as in the pic... 

Fahuwa yashfii... ;) 

Term Paper: Islamicisation of human knowledge..

Memujuk2 hati supaya steady...

Orang cuti kita study..

Moga Allah ganti..

Dengan syurga berkeliling bidadari, 

Yg lebih jutaan indah di pagari  buku, komputer sana sini..

Jzkk buat sang suami...

Jzkk buat sang suami..

Jzkk buat sang suami..

Punya toleransi beristeri begini.. 

Moga Allah gagahi dan berkati,

#assignment -Islice : an evaluation from the perspective of Islamicisation of Human Knowledge BELUM SIAP LAGII....:/  

Jgn tafseer Quran suka suki..

Minggu ni hati den dketuk dua Tuan Guru...

"Dr Nuur... If that is what u understood.. But remember AlQuran is revealed in Arabic Language , a language where SEMANTIC is a culture.." Implying me to apply  cautioun in my hahaha always bewildered thinking...

I was reflecting my understanding on ayat " miithaq" which I TOT the answer OF MY PERSONAL QUEST... To the question of "zaman Azali"???

Saying the covenant of " alastu birabbikum " which has been taught to us, of which happen sejak zmn "Azali"... But : WHEN IS that zaman AZALI ? 

In medicine we were taught that the  formation of the ovaries and testicles ( sexual organs) starts at the level of the kidney , loin behind the ribs.. Then the organs migrate to the respective private parts.. 

It starts at around 3 weeks embryogenic age to 11 th week .. ( hehehe 3 weeks  is like one week after fertilisation ok.. ) 

وَإِذْ أَخَذَ رَبُّكَ مِن بَنِي آدَمَ مِن ظُهُورِهِمْ ذُرِّيَّتَهُمْ وَأَشْهَدَهُمْ عَلَىٰ أَنفُسِهِمْ أَلَسْتُ بِرَبِّكُمْ قَالُوا بَلَىٰ شَهِدْنَا أَن تَقُولُوا يَوْمَ الْقِيَامَةِ إِنَّا كُنَّا عَنْ هَٰذَا غَافِلِينَ

And when your Lord brought forth from the children of Adam, from their backs, their descendants, and made them bear witness against their own souls: Am I not your Lord? They said: Yes! we bear witness. Lest you should say on the day of resurrection: Surely we were heedless of this.

I understood "min zhuhurihim zuriatahum" 

as the stage....

( 7:172)

Then I was reminded again by other Tok Guru today when we were studying the exogenesis of 2: 217

" ...alfitnatul akbaru minal qatl"

Alfadhil Imam said: 

Ramai orang termasuk ustaz2 salah tafsir ayat ni... Dimaksudkn dgn fitnah di sini bukan fitnah dlm bhs melayu mcm tuduhan, 

Bacalah ayat sebelum dan selepas ayat tu..tafsirlah dgn qaedah quran bil quran.. 

Fitnah di sini bermaksud: 

1) syirik

Begitu juga ayat 13:11

Yg selalu digunakan utk motivasi mgubah diri.. 

Salah tu!

Ayat itu sebenarnya utk mgatakan Allah x akan menarik nikmatNya dari hamba2Nya selagi mereka 1) taat dan 

2) beriman  semasa beroleh nikmatNya! ...

Astaghfirullahal azhiim.. Moga Allah memudahkan kita memahami bhs Arab dan mbuka hati hati kita pada ilmu dan hikmah ;) 

Rahmat Allah buat kedua2 Tuan Guru..

Prof Tan Sri Kamal Hasan

Dan AlUstaz Dr Abd Wahab: imam masjid hasanah bangi.. 

Berkat kopi o tak dak gula...

"Ooo.. X dak gula? " .Muka mamak muda mcm terkejut..

" Ya." Jeling aku meleret. Ntah Islam

ke tidak mamak2 ni.. Restoran ada khat, ada bilik air tapi sah x dah surau.. Jam dah 20 minit masuk maghrib...

Berkat kopi o tadi.. Bulat mata aku.. Jam dah tukar hari. Berdengkur orang penat , kendali sanun sini, pagi hingga lewat senja. 

Mngilai gelak kami. Bila terhayat suasana berdua tanpa anak2 dewasa.  Hidup harus bahagia..  Ikhlas! Memang sering terlupa yang kubur sudah dekat berganda.

Tetiba terasa rugi.. Mengapa aku tidak terus mengadap pesakit..

Dulu masa dlm proses mnjual klinik2 terasa mahu menulis berkongsi mengapa aku akur dgn tekanan langsung rela memadam jalan cerita memgusaha klinik2..namun demi adab aku telan  cita2 menulis.. Buat apa nak kongsi.. X der sapa pun nak peduli.. 

Fullstop ! 

* MENGUBAT itu OBAT...

Betul.. Memang bahagia memgubati orang.. Tetiba terasa "kosong" dgn episod mgubat.. 

Terasa seperti tukang anyam yg berhenti memganyam tikar.. Rugi.. Tapi tak tau sapa yg rugi.. 

Beginilah ku pujuk hati.. Kerjalah satu slot.. Amek duit tu separuh, separuh lagi bersedekah lah .. Moga dikau bahagia .. Ok.. Mulai 16 hb April di klinik

suami Dr Muhaya.. Jadilah padi yg tunduk bersahaja.. Pendek2 kan cerita.. Rawatilah mereka di luar dan di dada.. Pandang2 lah mereka dengan aqal berpenawar namun yang lebih pentimg dgn cinta yg membawa mereka ke sorga... Sollu 'alannabbiy... 

Demikianlah  berkat kopi tanpa gula ptg tadii..